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Wednesday, February 11
- In The Morning
8am in the morning. I'm chewing on muesli breakfast ceral bars and sobbing my eyes out reading a novel... on love and betrayal... acceptance and forgiveness. Honestly not the best combination I can ask for. Crapp. Aha. What made me come up with this entry after pausing at chapter 9 (partly to give myself some time off from all the exhausting sobbing) is to come about the fact that - I hate this self-reflection shite thing that goes through within me each time I read a novel. You know, like you go about linking the story and your own life together. Or through the chapters you sort of associate it to certain issues that happened in your life. Blah. Is it the same for everyone? Or is it just me? Cos' I thought reading was supposed to be for pleasure. Some thing people do to kill time, kill boredom? So, today's self-reflection topic - betrayal and forgiveness/acceptance. I don't even have an issue with that do I? HAHA. Gawdd. Some times, I seriously DO NOT have a single clue what's going on up there in my bloody head. Small issues? Betrayal? Does it even count as betrayal? I believe it is actually, but part of me thinks that I'm pretty silly thinking it is cos' it just seems to be a tiny weeny issue that everybody goes through in their life every now and then. But yet again, be it small or big, one thing for sure... I've yet to come in terms with it. No forgiveness, no accpetance. I ask myself when will the day come that I will grow to let it go... for now I have no answer. All I am doing now is running away. Am I? I wonder how long I will be able to that. Hmmmm. Okay, I'm making this sound very heavy again. HAHA. But it isn't THAT big of an issue... isn't it? I'm just being overly uptight over silly issues. Urghhhh. I need yogaaaaaaa! Lalala. Talking about yoga. I am DETERMINE to take it this time around. At the mean time, I've to go persuade Grace to learn it with me. HOHOHO! I don't know how much it's going to help me. But I mean, more pros than cons for sure. I hope to adopt inner peace, and a trimmer figuare out of it. That's what the description of the yoga class claims too. Haha. So let's just wait and see. Next up, guitar classes. Need the skills to go serenade some guy. BLAHHHHHH! HAHAHA!! |
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