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Sunday, November 23
- First step out
My cell is emtionless.The ants are happy. I wonder what I can do for myself next. Baby steps are better than no steps taken. I'm so proud of myself. Proud? Haha. Okayy, not to that extend. That's a little too exaggerating. The shackles chained to my ankles are loosen. Let's just keep it up - this good ol' feeling. In The Secret of Happiness, it says, "The search for happiness is about reeling in the 'big fish' - the only kind that truely matters - even if it means a lot of struggle." I have not reel in my 'big fish', but I'm confident it's just going to be a matter of time. At the mean time, lets just keep the 'little fish' - nice feelings, good moods and raw pleasures coming in. More please. It doesn't hurt that badd anymore. I'm too sick and tired all these crap. It just makes me disgusted with myself. It's okay. I've decided... I'm willing to forsake everything that comes with it. Cos' it has been made clear to me, that no one is going to give a shit about you in the end. Only have myself to answer for. And only I... can shield myself from it all. I guess it was my bad for walking out from my walls to begin with. I take blame. I will take the blame. Peace. Keep swimming in little fishy! (Till I get the big one that is) |
 cheryl..♥
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