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Sunday, May 4
- Life is becoming a drag.
Sometimes... it's just tough letting go of someone/things that you've once kept close to yourself. You know it's like once upon a time you have it all to yourself and now you might have to share it with someone else. The feeling sucks. Makes me scare whenever I think about it. But at the same time you know it's really selfish to habour such thoughts. Be it things or a person. I hate sharing.This is probably the hormones getting to me. It's the time of the month. Hah. Whateverrr. Work gets to me. A lot in fact. Finding hard to do other stuff in life every time I start working. Like during my attachment time. I always feel very disconnected from the world outside. It's pathetically ridiculous to a point whereby I find it a drag to even return a miss call or send a message. I just find it a drag. Work drains my soul away. When I'm in a bad mood. It just makes everything worse. This is the time when I wish I could live my life in denial. But as you may have all realised, reality has a funny way of creeping up on you. And when it does and smacks you right in your face hard. You'll regret. And regrets... as we all know sticks with you forever. Hauting you every now and then. Reminding you what an arse you are for not making the right decisions. The price you pay for making a friend call denial. Managed to wake up for dragon boat practice this morning. Dug out a long sleeve tee from my cupboard. Amazingly, it did not shelter me from the blistering sun. Imagine. I still slap on sunblock. So it's double protection, sunblock cum long sleeve. The result is - I'm still tan. It's driving me nuts man. I know everyone is sick of hearing me complain and whine about my tan by now. This contradiction that I'm stuck in is major. Till now I'm unable to get a solution to it. And it's really killing me. I suppose no one understands how much it affects me. Even if they do they can't do anything about it right? I detest looking at my mirror image these days. Next week onwards. Starting my running routine again. Feeling fat. In fact I have pile on some weight. Boo. Not much of a worry thou. Gonna lose it from next week onwards. And train hard. Have to stop slacking. Probably lack of excercise recently. Making me feel... all negative inside. Hopefully running will get me balance up. |
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