★ R A D !

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear
no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

Health important tips:
*. Dont take huge meals after 5pm.
*.Drink more water in the morning, less water at night.
*.Dont take medicine with cold water.
*. Dont laydown immedietly after taking medicine.
*. Best sleeping time is from 10pm to 4am.
*. Pls answer the phone by left ear.
*. When phone battery is down to last bar, dont answer the phone, as the radiation is 1000 times more!

Please forward this to people you care about. kindness cost nothing..

I feel your loving Mich. -Loves-
:)

Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.

I am going to be so broke for the month of March.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Not that it's something new. Hah. But this time around, the money spent is not going towards the stuff I want to get. It's going towards the pressie fund. Sally's 21st. Dirty girl's 22nd. Alvin's 23rd. Whatmore they're all people close to the heart. So yeahh. As Sally puts it - it's the thoughts that count but... how much you invest in the present determines the value of me in your heart. ERMMMMM. Times like this just makes it so tempting to _____ her. HAHA. So, truely, there's not a need for me to be looking forward to 1st March. Practically all the GST package funds will be channeled into present buying. Hmmm. I'm boosting the economy at the same time, aren't I.
HAHA. Crapp.

"If I think about it more, plenty of embarassing and painful situations come to mind, and I know that even if I had said goodbye to my memory of ... , I had not overcome it. Never to let myself be humiliated or humiliate myself after ... , never to take guilt upon myself or feel guilty, never again to love anyone whom it would hurt to lose."

Hmmmmm...

...

Have to workkkk till 6 tomorrow. Eurghhh.

Truely.

Eurghhhhh.

Truely.

(HAHA)

The title suggests it all.

My phone is really driving me insane. I cannot understand how the hell it functions. Each time I input something into my phone the previous stuff gets deleted. It's truely a case of EURGHHH. It's so irritating. I swear I'm going down to Apple or Singtel to find out how to use it. Before it gets on my nerve.

Truely.

I've heard monkeys' have itchy assholes'. And it has been a case of itchy asshole for me today. I was expriencing it the whole time when I was trying to get my evening nap. EURGHH! I know this sound really gross. But... Worse thing I don't know what got it started. Irritated. That got me up. Spoiling my plan to sleep through the night. Now I'm wide awake. Bored. And desperately trying to find something to amuse/entertain myself with - Starting with Sally's Larry's name. :D
Larry Loh Ling Ling. Hmmmmmm... And he offered to shot me a lovely ____-shaped peek. How nice.

Anyways, I pissed off with my whole driving issue. I think CDC is so out to cheat! First of all, I didn't realised there's an expiry date for my driving enrollment. Truely - What the HELL! You're charged like another $50 for renewal of enrollment. And I can't understand why we have to be charged for that enrollment fee in the first place. $160! I should have just taken private at the comfort of my own free time. And secondly the dumb lady at the registration counter didn't offered to help me book my basic theory when she could have done so, instead I was shoo off and advised to do it online, WHICH I very dumbly replied okay. Crapp. And for the most obvious reasons, I'm not the most efficient and on-ball kind of person when it comes to stuff like this. Urgh. What was I thinking.

I was mind-fucked that day. Truely.

SO! Now I have to rush to book my basic (hopefully I get it through the first round), and hurry on with my advance etc. Do I truely think I can make it within 7 mths! AHHURGHHH!!! I am soooo unwillingly to part with that renewal fee! I mean how can they take it that everyone can make it within a year. That renewal fee seems to be a fee that they know they're going to get at the end of the day. It's a bloody consipiracy! CDC is so fucked up. Truely.

8am in the morning. I'm chewing on muesli breakfast ceral bars and sobbing my eyes out reading a novel... on love and betrayal... acceptance and forgiveness. Honestly not the best combination I can ask for. Crapp. Aha. What made me come up with this entry after pausing at chapter 9 (partly to give myself some time off from all the exhausting sobbing) is to come about the fact that - I hate this self-reflection shite thing that goes through within me each time I read a novel. You know, like you go about linking the story and your own life together. Or through the chapters you sort of associate it to certain issues that happened in your life. Blah. Is it the same for everyone? Or is it just me? Cos' I thought reading was supposed to be for pleasure. Some thing people do to kill time, kill boredom?

So, today's self-reflection topic - betrayal and forgiveness/acceptance. I don't even have an issue with that do I? HAHA. Gawdd. Some times, I seriously DO NOT have a single clue what's going on up there in my bloody head. Small issues? Betrayal? Does it even count as betrayal? I believe it is actually, but part of me thinks that I'm pretty silly thinking it is cos' it just seems to be a tiny weeny issue that everybody goes through in their life every now and then. But yet again, be it small or big, one thing for sure... I've yet to come in terms with it. No forgiveness, no accpetance. I ask myself when will the day come that I will grow to let it go... for now I have no answer. All I am doing now is running away. Am I? I wonder how long I will be able to that. Hmmmm. Okay, I'm making this sound very heavy again. HAHA. But it isn't THAT big of an issue... isn't it? I'm just being overly uptight over silly issues. Urghhhh. I need yogaaaaaaa! Lalala.

Talking about yoga. I am DETERMINE to take it this time around. At the mean time, I've to go persuade Grace to learn it with me. HOHOHO! I don't know how much it's going to help me. But I mean, more pros than cons for sure. I hope to adopt inner peace, and a trimmer figuare out of it. That's what the description of the yoga class claims too. Haha. So let's just wait and see. Next up, guitar classes. Need the skills to go serenade some guy. BLAHHHHHH! HAHAHA!!

Period.

I don't understand why I'm naming this entry period. Haha. Hmmmm.

When I am so sure about what I'm doing, some things just have to happen to prove myself wrong. And just like a tsunami that washes away everything. I start doubting my actions and I have to start all over again. I keep telling myself - come what may. I have no control over certain issues that happen in my life. But yet again, once in while I question myself. Many times, it's hard to deny the fact that I land myself in shit . With my own hands, I dig my own grave. Haha. Ridiculous.

I wonder few years down the road what will happen to us. Is time what I really need? Will time pull us apart? Or will it provide a medium for us to grow to learn that we really need each other? Or am I just comparing? If she could do it without us for all these years, does that mean it will work the same for me? For everyone us? Actually, deep down I just cannot stop comparing. My bad. But everything have just shown me that promises dont count. Empty promises. Lots and lots of empty promises. I guess its just good to not harbour any expectations, so at the end of the day no one gets hurt.

Come what may. For now maybe we all need the space.
I think it's probably just me. HAHA.

cheryl..♥

11 november.
idealistic.
a walking contradiction.
50% anal, 50% cynical.

random thought..♥

And that's just how it goes.

loves..♥

all time bestie michelle.o (:
being alone.
cherry gummies.
"smelly" blankey.

fanices..♥

blythe.
fashion.
vintage.
rilakkuma.
live bands.
indie music.
lomography.
scuba diving.

hippies..♥

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